This afternoon, I was listening to the soundtrack of the movie The Secret Garden (1992), one of my favorites since childhood. Mary, the little girl who had grown up in India, told her cousin Colin that there was a Hindu story about someone who looked like everybody else on the outside, but when you looked down his throat, you could see the entire universe.
Colin said, with a sour face, “The universe couldn’t fit down anybody’s throat! It doesn’t make sense - it’s so stupid!”
Mary frowned, “No, it’s not! It’s magic.”
I remembered meeting a Taiwanese director when I was in Beijing. The poster design to her upcoming movie was a radiantly colorful painting of a young woman, but I could not understand the motif. She smiled and showed me another angle of looking at it, “It’s a dewdrop.”
The girl was a part of a dewdrop that reflected the kaleidoscopic world.
At that time I was living in my suitcase, traveling and working in 2-3 cities per month, and in between, vacationing in different Asian countries. I thought I was living my dream, when in reality I was confused, disoriented, overwhelmed, and had no time for my creative works.
The lady said to me, “One day when you have seen the world, you’ll see that... out in your backyard garden, there is a single tree, and on its leaf a single dewdrop would become your entire world.”
I’ve returned home since the beginning of this summer, with all my suitcases unpacked, and shipment boxes from various cities abroad piled up at my front door. Nothing seems to have changed, yet everything was different. Roses are still abundant in my front yard, and the deers still come and nip on them as snacks. The lemon verbena tree in my backyard is more alive than ever, and the forest is still the gentle green labyrinth that harbors the vines, the streams, and the blue hydrangeas that I often dreamed of in the past six years, when I was away from home in order to seek home within.
My website is finally here🥳
| ruifu.co |
with a small selected collection of my music and photography works related to my research on ethnic cultures & mythologies in Southern China.
More updates soon,
& thanks for being here💐✨